Warning: Contents under preasure and will explode in 3, 2, 1......

Moving
Graduating
Student teaching
Job Searching

Apartment Subleasing
Planning a Wedding
Planning a Wedding that will be held 8 hours away
Moving in together(secretly of course because it is SUCH a no-no)
Too many bills/ No income
Creating a schedule of when to be in which state
Packing an entire apartment of a hoarder ALONE
Pending dental work for someone who is terrified.
Scheduling bridal showers when I have NO IDEA where I will be or what my schedule will be.

All of these are stressful on their own.
I am doing all of these Simultaneously.
No one else seems to think this should cause any problems and do not see what the big deal is.
HELLO I am completely Type A, need things planned out, I need plans, calendars, all that. 
I NEED to know what is going on or at least a resemblance of some organization.

Moving, Packing

I hate moving, I have to pack up everything, hope I don't lose anything and it takes FOREVER.  The way this move works out it is drawn out over a month's time which is even more aggravating. I have boxes EVERYWHERE.  I don't know where anything is. I do not have anywhere to put all these boxes. I am spending twice as much time packing because I have to decide if its something I will need in the next 3 weeks or not. I am moving 8 hours away so it involves some planning, parents, and a UHAUL.  Did I mention I live on the 2nd Floor with VERY steep steps.  I am moving to the 3rd floor with no elevator.  One of my movers has severe physical disabilities so everything has to go in small boxes like 20 lbs or less.  I am going to end up have 200 boxes and it is going to take 2 days to carry it all down the stairs not to mention how long to unload. UHHHH!!

Student Teaching AGAIN, Graduation, and Job Searching.

So yeah I am student teaching for the SECOND time. The only difference is I loved it the first time around. I do still enjoy my students and my placement but I am in a mentally exhausting setting that we cannot change.  Its frustrating. I am a go-getter I like to change things for the better and right now I am stuck with my hands tied and I hate it.  We have gotten to a point where only 2 real assignments are left and we are pretty much sitting there all day with nothing to do.  We cannot teach the students because they are doing test prep.  we cannot work on our assignments because its against policy.  We're stuck just being there in the way for most of the day.  Its bothersome to all the teachers we have to annoy as well as us.  we have now found out that our placement has been extended by 2 weeks, but we are only there from 8-12.  We are not to teach only observe.  This sounds fantastic, but out students are in reading block from 8-10, so if we are not teaching, we have nothing to observe.  Then they go to P.E at 11. So really we have 1 hour to observe when we could be using our time for something much more useful. I am searching for a job and hello the economy sucks! I have no connections in the place I will be moving, at home it would be easy peasy lemon squeezy.  Receiving certification is already paper work paper work paperwork, but now I am having to do two sets of paperwork, one for AL and one for SC.  Not only that but this week I am required to attend an interview day where different school districts (a majority of which are from AL) interview us.  Most hire from these interviews.  Hello no schools within 50 miles of me will be there, yet I am still required to wear my suit, go and interview with 5 schools systems.  I feel like I am wasting there time and taking away from someone who may actually want a job there, WHATEVER.

Apartment Subleasing.Bills. No Income

So I could technically stay in T-town until the end of July, keep my apartment, and all that Jazz but I would be here alone with no job and nothing to do all day.  So I have decided to try to sublease the apartment out for the summer.  I want to get moved, and see family and all that.  But it is so hard and I may still end up paying some summer rent, its crazy.  If I don't find someone to sublease it will be $1200 in rent when I don't even want to be here. Which leads to the fact that I have NO MONEY, None, Zilch.That's another reason I cannot stay in my apartment unless I get a job and spend my first summer not in school working.  I have been in school for 18 years, I NEED A BREAK before the real world.  

Wedding

I break down crying at this word.  You should enjoy planning your wedding.  I cringe at the thought. I cannot make decisions, and when others bring it up I quickly remind them that it is still over 8 months away.  I can plan all day long but nothing can be set in stone because there is no MONEY! I am a complete idiot for quitting my job. I didn't work much, and I made minimum wage but I could have taken on more hours and maybe I could have gotten some wedding stuff done by now instead of being the worthless bride who could careless.  everyone says we would regret eloping But I say our wallets would never regret it.  I am sick of it.  This long engagement was necessary and we definitely could not afford to have a wedding right after graduation but I really wish we could have just cut back to a budget wedding and gotten it over with in June or July.  I am really hating the W word right now. 

Moving in Together Or LIVING IN SIN!

Okay we will be moving in together on our 4 year anniversary I really don't think anyone could question our commitment.  But still we opted to get a two bedroom apartment and live "separately" for 6 months. I get that we are doing it out of respect but lying isn't really respectful either is it? I just hate that I have to go there set up a bedroom and bathroom the way I like it all pretty where stuff matches, pictures have frames, and football schedules do not define decor, then 6 months later move into the man cave. Who knows we may continue to have separate rooms if decorating becomes THAT much of a problem.  

And Lastly ....

Schedules/ Showers

We are moving 8-9 hours away from home. I do not plan on making that trek often after I (hopefully)get a job.  I mean seriously if we left after S got off work it would be almost midnight when we got to AL on a Friday, then we could spend Saturday, then have to be back on the road no later than noon on Sunday.  The time differences makes it even more pain in the a-ful.  I don't know about you but the last time I checked gas is exactly on the budget for someone who has no income. :)

 I know its not PC to talk about people throwing you a shower.  BUT here's the deal. I know they are, they have mentioned it several times.  I will be in AL twice during the summer for a total of 5 weeks, I know the wedding is still 6 months away at that time but some people have suggested having showers while I am home. I think its genius, so much so that I completely designed my "At-Home" schedule around that shower.  Now its canceled because us Southern "Ladies" don't think its rightly-proper to have a shower so far away from the wedding.  I get that BUT I also see that sometimes there are these things called exceptions.  Like when the couple lives a ridiculous distance away and have very few dates to come home.  Now it has been suggested that we have multiple showers in one day, thats cool but if we have them at 12, 2, and 4 we don't get to spend time with the people there which is the most important part to me!  I just don't think having a shower during Thanksgiving weekend is going to work either.... IRON BOWL ? ever heard of it?  Yeh...someone didn't think that one through.  Black Friday?  Ain't happening.  Sunday...oh yeah we have to be on the road so unless we have the shower before church that one is out too. :)  Labor Day weekend sounds good, Bama plays out of town, but my mom has called that day for a Backyard BBQ shower. Very cute.  $10 says someone else will try to over rule that.  My mother has not gotten to do a lot for me in this life I will be swinging mad if ANYONE tries to take away from my Mom doing something for me.  She will gladly step aside and say whatever they do will be better, But oh no My mom comes first!
So yeah I'm heated tonight. :)