Guilt

With all the devastation surrounding I cannot help but feel guilty.
There are so many at home going without a home, power, food, anything and yet here I am sitting comfortably in my new apartment and just 6 days ago I was complaining about not having the extra money for new Pottery Barn curtains. As part of my graduation gift Scotty took me on a casino cruise and a night at a resort in North Myrtle Beach.  I felt so ungrateful, it was so hard to enjoy any of it because I cannot keep my mind off the hurt at home.  I wouldn't even play nickel slots because I wanted to give the money to the relief efforts. Scotty just doesn't understand how badly it is hurting me to not be giving back 24/7.  I always want to help.  If I have $1 to my name and someone needs it, then its theirs and I am almost appalled by the fact that not everyone feels that way. 
Regardless we had a great time once I realized that there is always heartbreak in this world, and that the great thing about the human spirit is that it always prevails.
Wednesday morning I will be packing up and heading back to DeKalb County
Thursday I will be heading to Tuscaloosa
I pray that I can help as many people as possible in the time that I am there.